Kiddo

BMT

2009-07-04T12:07:00.000-07:00

ok its time to blog something new....

I cant talk in detail about our Military life, or i am gonna get charged for it lol.....

what i can say about it is that... Its fun in a way, all these bunk buddy taking care of one another , with all the different kinds of joke generated.

Tekkong is pretty much "Clean" now in a way.. not much stories heard about it.. food is kinda bad .. starting to get sick of the food there already ... its just always that same few dishes, and never to fail us chicken meat all day long..

To be serious, the trainings is not as tough as what i thought it would be.. just because we are the mild obese batch... everything is going on pretty slow.. being sick in tekkong is also a pain in the ass.. lol we get like more than enuff rest .. they dont let us go for the activities even we feel like totally ok, its just for safety purposes... lol for that "WHAT IF, you faint and die".

Sigh so restricted on the content that i dont really feel like talking any further lol...

so far so good... been there for 1 month already.... another 2 months ++ to go.. seriously cant wait to get out of BMT .. we are really restricted to a large extend to do what ever things.. although i know the army we are going through now is like peanuts compared to people in the past... we have more RIGHTS now and much more Welfare... rarely have shit stuff happening to us .. unless we fucked up on something .

i am picking up all the vulgars in the army, i am starting to turn into these kind of guys with "Fuck, Cheebye" coming out in every sentence of mine.. i accidentally said fuck to my younger cousin that day, but i think he didnt hear what i said lol.

its 3.30 am now.. i am tired and sleepy .. but i dont wanna go sleep cause i am booking in tomoro.. booking out to sleep is a real bad idea.. rather spend more time on stuff that i cant do in the camp..

2 years of life in army... argh ,heart starting to hurt when i think of it.. SOOO RESTRICTED ~ and this is the so called discipline that all soldiers must have...

Time pass quicker please. i wanna try some unit life.. lol

Hi guys

2009-05-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

Almost half a years ago since i last blogged lol.... Times pass really fast...

In 2 weeks time i am heading into army, i dont know how it will turn out to be.. but i am certainly looking forward to it. Tekkong lol.. the "dirty" place everyone is talking about. Hope its gonna carve my last part and most fun of my teenage life before i step into the society and work..

The more i yearn for a happy family, the worst its gonna get. I really hate this ancient Asia culture that my parents enforced into the family... all i want is just a simple family and parents that i can confide in, asking them what i can do giving me advices when i needed them.

My dad throws wrappers of eaten biscuit on the chair, with all the bits and pieces all over the place , and he just walks off without cleaning them up to his room and sleep. I tried not to dislike my dad for stuffs like this, i know he loves and care for the family. i Recall how he used to buy toys and ice cream for me when ever i wanted, its always these memories keeping me from disliking him and all his other flaws.

My dad have hypertension B .. Diabetes... he is not suppose to drink beers, and eat sweet stuffs, BUT aparantly he is totally not giving a dam about these problem he have.

He drink beer everyday, Eat some sweet stuff everyday, at first i pretend to just close one eye, when i see him drinking beer.. or eating fruits like apple or oranges just to quench his crave for sweet stuff.

Then the first nightmare happened, 2nd relapse of his liver hardening, he appears to be afraid.. ok, after sometime hes cured of the liver hardening. The doctor said he was lucky... 2nd relapse is like 60% chance of recovery.. and if it happens the third time, its really difficult to say. Liver hardening leads to liver cancer.. and so long.. chain of problems that will happen and not to mention that he have diabetes.

Recently he is doing alot of leg therapy on his own, i know he is trying to hide the fact that he is starting to feel numb on his legs. Every night i see his applying these chinese medication oil .. and doing the electro therapy thing for his legs to stimulate blood flow.

But, he is still drinking and eating sweet stuffs when he is not supposed to. its not like i didn't tell him not to, i explained to him why he should not drink, but very often i just get a scolding from him saying that i am annoying and being noisy. its getting worst now , he buys 2 - 3 cans of beer in the fridge.. and drink 1 can everyday? i don't freaking like beers so i didn't drink it on behalf of him. And i don't want to turn myself into a acholic because of him.

It really makes me wonder if he still loves the family or not, wasting his life away like this. i know mum loves him alot, i cant imagine if the liver hardening happens for the 3rd time and he didn't make it through. do he even really have the thought of the family when he drink with his friends in the coffee shop... Sigh.. and i am going into the army soon... i can only pray that he will be fine and he knows when to stop ...

Dad, i know i love you but i really cant bring it to my mouth and say it. Our family is just brought up this way, i just hope you can be the kind of dad i wanted ... A role model, someone whom i can learn things from and i can put them into good use next time in my life up holding the thought that my dad thought me these... but you are not showing me any of these..

i am feeling so jealous.. lol.

Health

2008-12-30T06:12:00.000-08:00

Ding ding ~ new year coming lol... again i am blogging 1 month later from the previous post. hahahaha i know my blog is quite isolate one no people really read, only some of my friends read.

I am very very lazy to upload photos.. lol ... and yea i am here to come and complain about projects again

got 7 project on hand now !

ICT
PHP
3d MAX modeling Flying dragon
Flash Game
Flash website
Director (Movie Sampler)
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Adobe after effects project (coming soon)

Weee !!!! And right now my health is on alert mode, just when i need to sleep late and do my project =.=

Went for NS medical checkup first time, they told me my heartbeat too fast need to go retake in 2 weeks time. So after 2 weeks i went again, and the result was the same, heartbeat too fast. Then he told me i got a little high blood pressure, its the symtom of the start of high blood pressure already... then they ask me to go back in 1 months time again... then they will attatch a machine on my body, moniter my blood pressure for 24 hrs.. hiaz.. see i already got so much problem with my body already.. now its giving me high blood pressure...

Alamak i how old only... 19 years old and i got so many problem with my health .. not really Big problem, but all these problem Require me to watch what i eat... what i do.. sigh.. why my life so sarks man... i cant eat too much tibits... go movie kenot eat popcorn.. kenot really eat choc stuff as well... (although i got eat abit lol) now gonna get high blood pressure.. i cant eat too salty stuff... and the bad news is my dad and my uncle got diabetis (spell wrong but i am sure you all know what i mean)... so.. if i kena diabeties in the near future... i am reduced to eating food without any seasoning? . i am so gonna die man.. Argh... always me and me and me and me =.= as i grow older my life get worst.

i must have been a really really bad guy my previous life.. think i killed someone, then tear the body apart feed dog, take bone go boil bakut teh.. blood go do ruitual.. skin make snare drum.. hair make violin... what else? mmm maybe i didnt kill him.. considering my health problem is long term lifelong .... maybe i locked the person up and whip him or her like every day or something.

God loves to pick on me. i feel like a lab rat. i saw these baby hamster at AMk there.. new shop beside amk hub.. i feel so tempted to buy one home.. i never fail to smile when i look at them no matter how stressed up i am, lol.. looking at their innocent faces sleeping in all sorts of cute position makes my heart melt. i can literally hear echos of "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ,AWWWWWWWWWW" ringing in my head from every direction... maybe i shld get one... maybe i got high blood pressure cause my hamster is gone .. nothing for me to smile at everynite before i sleep....

Wakaka

2008-11-24T21:10:00.000-08:00

Long time no blog already... heheh sorry.. wanted to update all the time but just dam lazy to do so...

So first of all .. Thank every one for the birthday wishes.. lol.... i know this is long overdue.. had alot of fun at chomp chomp, i was really suprised with the birthday card... haha..

Then.. Its the WOTLK launch ... in case people dunno what is that.. it is the game expansion that i am playing... hehe.. They blardy.. made us climb 6 storey to get the game... and then walk down 6 storey to exit the place.. pratically they are making us walking around and around in circles... And took TAXI back.. cause our dear hui yun wanted to... (oh ya ... you still owe me 6 dollors.. LOL).

Its Getting REAL REAL BUSY these 2 weeks... no time to play wow.. and just when the feel come back that i want to train.. i dont have time to play... Think at most these few days can log in do the daily quest.. and some simple quest..

Farking wow level 74 1/2 way to 75... ARGH.. i hate leveling druid ! WTB my mage... gotta relevel a ally mage from scratch... Not enuff time sia...

GOING to army in like another half a years time... just hope by then at least my druid and mage will be both 80 and PVP GEARED at least...

Now blogging in lab.. ICT project management ... rofl.. from week 1 till now i didnt listen at all.. actually whole class didnt listen .. not only me haha.

TODAY.. go home must do storyboard.... MY LEET 2D stick man drawing.. And i still remember last time i drew my harry potter pencil box... the teacher asked me..

"Is this a soap?"

*Class burst into laughter* Cause they know i am drawing pencil box....

SOOOO i gotta pick my self up... lol tonight.. i need to draw a king.. and farmer.. and noble mans.... Good game.. i have a feeling this time teacher will ask...

"Is this a colony of ants?"

Project on hand......

3D max need to model 7 Object....
3D max project need to model my flying dragon...
3D max need to animate the storyboard i drew...
Flash project need to make a handphone game.. gotta programe it ourself as well
Director project... Make a movie browser kind of thing...
Adobe After effects project.. To be confirmed..
This stupid ICT project management thingy...
Common test in 2 weeks time...

i know got more but right now i cant recall it lol....

New Chapter

2008-10-14T10:02:00.000-07:00

Woo i downloaded brave fencer musashi ~ and ... SO HAPPY at first and the whole game start of with ... a blue blue moon on the sky....

"Chapter 1 - The Journey Begins"

and after that the screen just go pitch black.... Journey begins in black hole? wtf? rofl....

yea i am feeling much better after trashing out in the blog... thanks to these who ask if i am fine... lol

gotta love the after band KFC chit chat session.... it alway brings us so much laughter. feels like all kind of unhappiness is gone ~

Ridwan.. i am so gonna learn all the bad stuff you teach me...

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"HEY ROBIN!, see i think thats Lun Tat right?"

*my heads looked at the direction he point*

me : "Where ? Where i didnt See them...."

*ridwan steals my fries*

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*throws key on the floor*

"Hey can you help me pick it up?"

*another fries stolen*

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"Hey can you grab the tissue of there for me?"

*Stands up slightly and reach for the tissue*

*Another fries stolen*

omg ~ Fries stealer~ wut the fug ?

oh and jhokie ! thanks for the musashi songs lol ! really brings back alot of memories.. love you tons !

Bleh...... feels like my body is not in good condition again... getting funny aches here and there ..

It Came

2008-10-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

Ok..i know i didnt blog for a long time... because i am leaving the space for my other hamster...

Alright.. the 2nd one died .... no photo taken.. cause its pretty much unsightly...
buried it next to my first hamster..

I cant belive what is happening to me these past 2 days..

First.... My 3rd sis treat the whole family to eat some nice seafood.. I cant go cause i got band practise.... yesterday..

Second... My band performance falls on my 3D Animation class... which is the class i always wanted to attend ever since i choose my freaking course... ok skiped it as well today... ( i didnt know my animation class was on wednesday.. stupid new timetable....)

Third.. Bird shit drop on my shoulder this morning when i am heading over to the band room...

Fourth .. My hamster died tonight..

Am i freakin down on luck or something, i am overwhelm with grieve right know i seriously dont know whats wrong or wtf is the god trying to do to me. I wont blame the band cause i agreed to perform, i need to be responsible for what i have promised. its just that all the thing pop out last min making me feel so screwed.

if gods want to kill me pls send a car to bang me right when i am crossing the road.
STOP playing these kind of farking small little tricks on me .....

Gods pretty much screwed up my whole life... i am not living in pain or what... but all these small little problems on me.. my head my ass my body .. EVERYWHERE got a farking problem.

I dont have a God dam room for me to trash things out. I SLEEP IN THE LIVING ROOM FOR FUCKING 19 YEARS.. I DONT HAVE A FARKING PLACE TO PUT MY BLOODY THINGS, EVERYWHERE I PUT I AM BOUND TO GET A SCOLDING.

when you say things nicely yes. i got the biggest room.. so? do you like it when everyone passes through your room every few mins? EAT and throw all the farking wrappings papers of sweets, biscuits, Tissues, Food crumps, Food stains on the floor and the table? and i am always the one who is clearing all the shits up. CAUSE I NEED TO SLEEP THERE.

When friends come to my house i dont have a proper room to entertain them. And when i need time alone i have to hide in the toilet TO CRY TO SMILE AT THE WALL OR TO ADMIRE THE SOILED UNDIES.

I AM SLEEPING BESIDE THE SHOE RACK. SHOES right behind the fan that is blowing towards me every night. Salted fish smell of any kind of flavour or duration 1 week 1 month 1 year you choose...

ITS NOT GONNA KILL ME I KNOW, BUT ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY.

WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THESE??

ITS NOT AS SERIOUS AS NOT HAVING LEGS OR HANDS, UNCURABLE DISEASE , BLIND , MUTE OR WATEVER SHIT I KNOW

BUT TRY TO FARKING LIVE IN A CONDITION LIKE THIS FOR 19 YEARS. AND I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THIS.

I AM JUST FEELING SO IRRITATED AND ANNOYED NOW. MY HAMSTER DIED AND MY FARKING 1ST SIS CAME OUT OF HER ROOM SPRAYING AIR REFRESHENER ALL AROUND THE LIVING ROOM SAYING

"THIS ONE WILL KILL GERMS!"

WTF? CANT SHE FARKING DO IT WHEN I AM NOT AROUND. SHES SPRAYIN RIGHT INFRONT OF ME. WHEN I AM CLEARING MY HAMSTER CAGE.

I Really Really had enuff...

Perhaps my mother shld have agreed with my father when he wanted to abort me long ago.

I shouldnt have existed in the first place....

Argh... feel so much better after letting all these out.. i gotta do this once in a blue moon... i will be smiling tomoro...

Life and death

2008-09-14T11:01:00.000-07:00

QQ my hamster died today... i discovered it like 2 - 3 hours after it died.. body not warm... but its still soft.. so it didnt die for very long..

he died beside his favourite cuttlefish that my mum gaved him...

Well... He lived with me for around almost 2 years... and he gave me all kind of problems. Right at the start.. he fought with his brother hamster.. until both of them bleed.. so i gotta take them into different cages...

not long after... he became kinda emoish.. always hiding in one corner.. and yea its the common problem for hamsters after changing their living ennvironment... luckily i cured him by putting him into the Plastic Transparent ball.. (for hamster to crawl around the house with it) everyday.. lol .. and he is smart to find his old house..
after that he became more active in his own cage and tada ~!

next... he contracted some kind of skin problem... and his leg became swollen... but i guess this is the start of the nightmare.. then his skin problem just come and go all the time.. until like 2 months ago .. his leg got some infection, and kinda like rot a little.. so .. again cured it with some medicine ... the leg healed...

but it look really haggard.. so i already knew this day would come... and there..

so i buried it.... with some new bedding and food.. (well its kinda like chinese tradition... dont wanna let him go hungry on his way to reincarnation)

and .. not forgetting to give him my little token of appreciation these 2 years he accompanied me..

well if i said i am not sad i am faking it.. lol .. yea tears did fall from my eyes after placing these flowers on it..

and it became my signature wallfall eyes when i started to clear his house.... well even now i can feel my eyes are teary again ... lol may he bless his brother to live longer.. and yea.. i will never forget you.. hes my 4th hamster that i buried ...

sigh.. if he lived for another 1 month plus ... he would be celebrating my birthday with me... i got them on my birthday 2 years ago... and i remember how tiny they were.. the went missing on the second day i bought them, aparrantly there were so small that they squeezed throught the grills of the cage .. lol found them hiding in my shoe box..

not sure if i will buy another one if this current hamster dies... but i really love hamsters..

Well .. i am sure i will be drooling with my eyes on the pillow tonight...

Take care and go to the painless world little one ! meet your seniors ! (my other hamster that died)

Remembering you always.....

1 month..

2008-09-02T22:53:00.001-07:00

lol sorry.. i know i am gone for a month... people who comes back to my blog to read regularly i really appreciate it...

ok.. so seriously nothing much had happened after my fyp.. i am just at home.. finding job.. playing game at the same time. and it occurs to me that i should use this 1 months time to do something meaningful..

1) Slim down ( this apparantly quite hard, piangs my father buy char siew rice with extra duck drumstick for me =.= . i press the drumstick i can see the oil ozzing out rofl, BUT i am eatting relatively much lesser than last time... so i think its a slow and long and painful process to slim down like that..)

2) Gyming (ok been going gym with jeremy .. but i think can go more than 2 times a week)

3) Work (ok this is not meaningful at all.. lol just to earn money thats all..)

4) Learn Piano ( yes this thought suddenly came back to me after hearing my piano songs..)

So yes i think i choose 1 2 4 .. 3 i shall put it aside first... i got like the rest of my life to do it.. lol.... right now i think i am looking for a piano teacher.. gotta start somewhere..

I wanted to learn piano ever since i was young... but back then when i am at primary school.. my mum dont allow me to learn, i remember asking her

"Ma... I wanna learn how to play a piano.."

then she said

"Learn piano for wat! no use ! kenot earn money with it ! our house no space to put piano already ! dont learn!"

And yea... so i ended up didnt learn.. up till when i was at poly year 2... i was playing with the electric keyboard my sister brought home.. my mum saw me sitting down at the keyboard for hours, trying to learn how to play Cannon in D. Then she came to me and say

"Boy ah, you really like piano so much ar? (i bet she say this cause she see me not playing computer game instead)"

then i replied

"Ya.. i asked you when i was young .. i said i wanted to learn piano .. but you said.. (Above) ... then never learn lor.."

Then she said

"You really want to learn ar? .. Go and learn now lor... i help you pay the fees.."

then i was thinking in my brain

(Wa piang.. last time i small small, hand still very agile and flexible that time she dont let me learn, now my hand stiff like carrot liao then let me learn... and now already like so busy liao... got band .. got sch... got exam... got work.. that time i still in brewerkz working.. where got time to learn...literally monday to sunday is occupied)

yea so now is holiday... i think i should go and start learning.. before my finger become stiff like sugarcane..

Personality test.

2008-07-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

I personally find this 75% true ...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. (Yes!)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (So far... Nobody really made me felt this way... or i shld say i myself didnt try to find one..)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. ( i will only commit when i meet the right person of course..)

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? (Not for now, My fats arent that seductive)

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. ( i know education is important, but i am lazy to learn stuff that i dont like... like programming..)

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. (Kinda true,i got too much stuff i wanna achieve till i cant focus, and i like to be moving constantly)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. (yea i always dont even try, cause i am afraid of failure.)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (yea true)

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (Yea i am always in a dilemma when i am traped with a problem and yea my heart and brain is always conflicting)

Fun weekend!

2008-07-27T19:35:00.000-07:00

yea yea ... so i guess most of the reader of my blog will know that i went to sentosa last saturday with my classmates ! but too bad the sun disappeared and only came out for like 30 mins... in the end only got "Tanned" by that little bit... and the funny thing is i apply suntan lotion over my hand and body.. in the end, some part of my hands and back is red.. cause i didnt apply properly LOL.... Like red patches here and there..

Played beach volley ball... Captain frisbee ... Swimming ~ Building of sand lan jiao (by jeffrey) and Sand Baby castle (the toy i bring) ...
Sorry no photo taken.. LOL cause i put my handphone and wallet in my bag... got some i think with Yiling or liting.

Then some of us went for Dinner at Kim gary (Vivo) ... The food taste ordinary.. ... Taste not bad.. Price reasonable .. Overall i grade it as good .. hahaha.. Sorry no photos again.. Cause we were farking hungry.. Food come only all started gorging liao LOL. Reached home around 9 ++ then i play WoW ... Farm for a little bit Honor ... Then *SNOOOOOOOOOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE* *MUmmummmmmuUMmm* *SNNOOOOOOOOREEEEEEEEEE*

Sunday went to gym again.... i did more than what i did last week.. but it appear to me that my hand not as pain as last week.. lol.. infact not pain at all.. only feel a little "suan". hmm yea.. so maybe i shld increase the intensity of the thing i do more.. Then went to Desmond Despo des sek sek (Quoted From Shyan) de house.. Slack around abit ... then Went home with jeremy...Walk at NTUC at AMK hub.. Buy Exercise Clothes... reach home around 8 ++ also... Then played WoW again... yes, its again..
But this time went for Kara .. i got 7 epic ... all the way until chess event.. today gonna continue kill Prince and Netherspite... uahahahahah.. Hope my Light Justice drop.. /pray..

Finally !

2008-07-24T23:49:00.000-07:00

Ok finally yseterday i dinged level 70 with my ally ! so happy now !

this means i got more time to do my own stuff... and the big rock in my heart is gone , But i got things to do for it as well... Farming and farming...

shall post the pic of it dinging later...

Argh ! FYP presentation pushed to one week forward, Got one week lesser to do my new assignment... Dam scared now .. cause i really is got nothing much to present... sigh.. Lets just pray to god that i can pass my FYP ..

Strained

2008-07-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

Lifes so sian now man, i have been on going for 9 months without any break already.
I know working adults is the same is this and what i am going through is part and parcel of life !

I hate 8.30 - 6 pm kind of life already, Only can stay strong and go through all these with friends along by the side. Glad i met more nice people during my FYP fun and outgoing. Got this "Chiu Di" Nickname due to the comment from my big mouth. And suddenly Poped out so many "Chiu Jie".

AND OMFG I AM FAT. Guess a pet reflects how owner will look like.....

Its hard for me to resist food. Guess after i reach level 70 With my Game i shld really get down into business to jog and whatever everyday.
Simply eating less wont help much, i read the article Eating less is part of Slimming down, Excersise is another major part. I know this all along but i am just giving myself excuses not to go for excersise.

Think i saw someone i like. But when ever i look at myself in the mirror i will just give up the idea of trying get her.

I am just so lack of confidence, i need to get that man boobs off my chest its really disturbing me, Sometimes i really feel like slicing it off

Hmm no no shld be like this

So does pictures make blog reading more enjoyable? I know i am full of rubbish, this kind of post comes once in a blue moon ok. SO APPRECIATE MY FOTOZHOP sKillz

What the hell

2008-07-02T00:43:00.000-07:00

Today is the presentation day for us... and i just presented to the manager of the course i am studying.

MY supervisor told me the scope of the presentation is to say what you have done.

But aparrantly, The Person i am presenting to wants more of a sales proposal, he wants me to like make him convinced and sell him my product.

WTF? i am just on the first stage of my project, i dont even know if i can do the Table of information that i am suppose to come out with anot. And there he is saying what i am going to do is not enough, and he wants more. WTF is this ? WTF ?

I can be a teacher now too man, Throw your student 3 letters "ABC", ask him to find out how to do. And let him do what you want.

WTF ~!~!~!~!!~!~!~ I CHOOSE ANIMATION FOR MY SPECIALIZATION, AND YOU ASK ME TO DO ROUTER CONFIGURATION FOR YOU . AND THERE YOU ARE SAYING THAT "WHO YOU THINK IS GOING TO USE YOUR PROGRAM" WTF, My supervisor give me what i do wat, am i wrong? If you think is not good enough farking please have a meeting with your supervisors , BEfore giving the students the project. I present to you what my supervisor want me to do, you tell me its not good . Then my problem? Go talk to him then.

I KENOT CHOOSE WHAT I WANT TO DO FOR MY PROJECT, AND FOR GODNEESS SAKE ITS INVIDUAL WORK!!!!

Dissapointed

2008-06-29T02:55:00.001-07:00

Felt Betrayed and Dissapointed.

After all that i have done , This is what i get in return.

Cant understand

2008-06-25T21:18:00.001-07:00

Up till today i will say i cant really understand myself, What my heart really really wants.

I am always in that 3min of impulse thing all the time, but after i sleep and wake up in the morning, i will start to wonder about what i want again. And everything the decision is different.

Sometimes i really wonder if i should give up playing game... and do something that is more practical and useful.. but i know i cant... The course i am studying now.. I wanted animation so that i can make games animation... movie animation.. Everything i am doing and studying for is like for games.

So if lets say i wanna stop gaming. I dont know what am i studying this course for..
looking at newspaper .. and news... saying how secondary sch students can do animation as well, makes me kinda scared. Everyone can do animation then what am i studying it for lol.

Giving up

2008-06-23T18:35:00.000-07:00

Blog blog blog blog blog . Ok went to DD chalet! it was quite fun to know more people , even if there is a age gap between us... WoW is just the express way that break all kind of gaps. was kinda disppointed with the nite time.. caused not many people stayed. Thanks for all the food and organizing !

Went to find my supervisor regarding my project yesterday... ok today he told me shit loads of more stuff.. but omg... i just simply dont know how to do or start the project. He himself also know its difficult... sigh.. i just hope i can produce something out... i dont wanna fail my FYP.

Ok ... about pillar building... Currently the process from like 20% droped to 0%. And i am giving up already..i have given enough time... i realise how sucessful a pillar can be built depends on how we look like.. and i know how i look like infront of a mirrior, i am not BHB.

Blogs full of photos are more Entertaining huh .... my blog got no photo one. lol i lazy upload.

i think i got insomnia .... i cant sleep at night... and its really killing me to wake up so early everyday..

Its time to start, I need something that i got to work for...i need more determination. Lets cut 10kg ! or wait ... 15kg ! ..

Need some bitch to scold me right in the face your are fat. Then i will eat fruits for all the three meals.

Sorry for the jumpy Post rofl(Rolling on floor laughing) ..... i simply write what came to my mind.

Emoing

2008-06-18T19:57:00.000-07:00

Lifes been the same for me....... I dont know why but i kinda always feel like i am like a little child, looking for people to take care of me. And i always cant find any sense of sastisfaction from anything i have done.

My attatchment was kinda bad.

My FYP is worst now i think.

Guess my self expectation is too high.

My family never give me any sense of belonging. But instead i can feel it from my friends.

I let my emotion run wild easily, any movie or show or the slightest sad thing i feel can make my tears fall like leaking pipe.

Recently my brain is filled with multiple feelings.. and when they are all happening at the same time, it just makes me feel that i am going mad.

Happy, Anger, Fustration, Tired , Desperate.

These 5 feelings i got now is making my head spinning in a vortex.

I always feel that i did something bad in my previous life... thats why people around me always seems to have a better life than me.. Sometimes i just dislike my father , but i keep reminding myself no matter what he is still my father.

Family, Friends, Love.

I devote alot of my time to other people.. leaving very little time for myself.. even in game...

I feel happy to help people, I feel happy to see someone else becoming happy because of some sacrifice i made.

But as times goes by .. The amount of sacrifice is backfiring at me. But i cant stop doing it... its just something in me. Being too good to others is a flaw? i am always giving out like 100% , but receieving like 10% .

Starting to feel tired of life... Are we just borned to Eat, Sleep, Work and die?
i always hear people saying how Africa people is always not having enough food.. how people in blah blah country is picking rubbish for money... We maybe have more than enough of these.. but at the expense of getting brain fucked everyday.

Cant stop feeling so Emoish now, I just have so much things in my heart untold. I feel like naruto at times. Having good friends around me, supporting me... But i need a real pillar behind me.

But the pillar is not appearing. I am building one now, But its falling back to ground level.

Love this blog skin alot, totally describe me..

Always being cheerful.

Dont worry about me... i have been living with this feeling about Around 7 years already.

Emoing.

Once in a blue moon

2008-06-11T19:09:00.000-07:00

HI, lol sorry didnt blog about my concert, it was real good... LOL ok forgot what i wanna say already, for mroe info please visit Kit Ying BLog ! she got all the photo of the things there !

time to rant about my throat ! i ahve been coughing for like straight 10 days already... its not that serious.. but my throat always feel itchy and i just wanna cough. partly it didnt recover cause i continued to drink cold drinks... eat chicken.. LOL...

Life sarks, everything still have to go on... i want my holidays to come soon man.. my druid is level 42 ! needa reach 70 asap man.. but my time in sch isant allowing me to do it...i wanna go for raids! i wanna start my alt .. rofl .. i wanna play end game content...

FYP sarks real bad... Freaking ying Zheng got the nice room cum project.. lol we got shit projects and shit rooms .....i got a shitty Supervisor as well... leave me alone one cao... write me three words and ask me to be alone for so long.. i wanna do my projects one ...

Sick

2008-06-01T19:50:00.000-07:00

Woo its like the first blog i made after my attatchment. lol ..i am having FYP now....and i am waking up earlier than my attatchment...slacking whole day long. The best thing right now for FYP is i got 2 female dog (Supervisors of the room) , watching us in the room ... they didint provoke me, but i just dont like the way they look at me. Early in the morning cant be late..or they send mail to my in charge... which is dam fucked.. other people song song come late leave early... i cant .. ARGH.......

Life's been hard for me lately, Upcoming performance is kinda rushing and we are not really prepared for the concert... Its so last min... Morning sch, At nite band...
I really need my holidays soon... althought most prob i will be getting job by then..

MY freaking nose is killing my throat as well... its feeling so sore that it is affecting my throat..

Current feeling is very sickly lol ... i am very sure i will have a fever after my concert...

Oh and yea WY i just saw your blog, lol i just accompany you eat dinner only.. summore you come near my house... dont worry about it yea.. Luckily i met you too ^.^

Finally i am able to watch naruto again lol WY just gave me a webby ! kinda excited about it yesterday and watched naruto instead of training wow.. Lol

WoW currently at level 36 for ally.... its really really slow i would say... but i guess i cant blame it since i am really busy these past 2 weeks.... Really excited about getting to level 70 as well... looking at the amount of request for people for kara and raids makes me motivated.. Guild is full of SG people as well...

Sorry yun... i cant get you into the guild right now ... Maybe you can try registering on the forum... but i promise to get you in if i can.. right now i dont know them much... and they are pretty strict about recruiting people ..

Didnt sleep well the entire nite... flipping in bed thinking about my concert stuff and my nose is so uncomfortable.. came to sch this morning only with like 2 hours of sleep?
my handphone alarm woke me up when i felt that i just slept for 30mins... look at the time and i know i cant drag any longer or the dogs in my classroom will send letter again... FEELING REALLY IS DAM SICK NOW !!!!, Not in the mood to eat any nice stuff... and i feel like calling anyone that i am not happy with dog.... lol.. I am jumping topic like wth man.. just simply typing what i am thinking right now... totally no link at all.. lol ... continue next time.....

I am thinking about too much stuff... my brain is overloaded now.. dont know why am i typing all these here , no body seems to read my blog anyway ! T.T

Found this somewhere.. i am bored so i can do it... hehe

1. When will the Sun not shine and when will the World end?
Answer: When i die i cant see them anymore..

2.What you want the most now
Answer: Someone who i can hug and love. But i dont think its possible

3. Do you believe in ur best friends?
Answer: Yes.

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
Answer: Yeah. When i feel i am being taken for granted

5. When do you wish to die?
Answer: Quite neutral about it. I am mentally prepared to die anytime

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Answer: Depends on how big the rain is..

7. What impossible things u would wish to do?
Answer: Having super powers, Bend time.. Heal.. Teleport.. Invisiblilty..

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Answer: Haven seen one before.. only saw how materialise a person can be...

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to comit suicide?
Answer: Nope.

10. What feeling do you love most?
Answer: Appreciated by people.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Answer: Play game with me ! , Cheerful and huggable.

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
Answer: Unappreciated and disliked by someone

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Answer: Yes..

14. Is there anything you're looking forward to in the next few weeks?
Answer: BBQ... And leveling my alliance toon !

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Answer: Friendship, Money

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
Answer: Someone whom i haven met? Hope to see "Someone" appearing in my life soon.

17. Do you find life meaningless?
Answer: Yes, Work Play Eat Sleep die.... This is how i define life, Sometimes i just hope that my mother abort me back then when my father wanted to.

18. Who do you love the most?
Answer: Friends and family

19. What's your latest injury?
Answer: Blueblack on the leg cause of the frekin big drum i carry for performance =.=

20. Who did I chat with just now ?
Answer: My classmate!

21.How retarded can you get?
Answer: You can never imagine how retarded i can get.

Work Work and more Work

2008-04-23T20:35:00.000-07:00

Just when i thought the program is more or less done.. another work poped up to me

my supervisor sent me to take the storyboard for the Quicktour thingy.. not very sure what is it for.. but nvm , just when i was going to take the storyboard from the one in-charge of the storyboard.... she said it's outsourced to another company.

Then she asked me "Euuu you how to Euse Photoshop and dreamweaver?" when i hear this i sense impending doom... but of course i cant say i dont know... so i said "ya.."

immediately she said "ok very good ! i need you to help me with some my html things"
then my heart was like ZOMG ~! i hear a inner voice screaming inside me "NOOOOOOOO"
ok nvm... then when i was working with it i find things are freaking horrible, LOL cause i use layers for almost everything in the past few assignment i did for dreamweaver. now this one kenot use layers, i am totally lost about how to do it.

Seriously i joined this company , and the freakin school sent me here at a very wrong time. The company is doing some holy mama big projects ATM, and i am kinda like dragged into doing it as well.. the feeling is so horrible, its just like i got another project regarding some website that i need to do or hand in again =.= and i kenot see my feeling and do, have to do it according to what they want. and the thing is they are going to launch all these thing that i am doing as well on around mid may.. BUT I AM LEAVING END OF MAY !!! SO I CANT THROW THE REST TO THEM AND SAY BYEBYE.

Have to finish up the stuff i do =.= ! eew eew eew eew eew eew eew eew. I NEED A CCONTROLLER THAT CAN FAST FORWARD THINGS MAN. i hate these kinda of project project on hand feeling lol..

AND YESTERDAY GOT NO KARA, NO TANK . KENOT PLAY MAN. Totally dissapointed. waiting for wei yi to start ally with me...

Attatchment end soon please.

2008-04-16T20:16:00.000-07:00

Woo the freaking program is done ! finally....

have to program for the desktop and the internet one =.= of course i didnt do it by myself.. my supervisor helped me alot.. and thankfully he is very patient with me.

so now... back to the count down...26 more Working days ... lol minus the weekend of 10 days..

Been fairly stressed up these few weeks, and i can really say its still gonna be the same. Cause i got my percussion ensemble performance at the end of may... and i got my this program thingy that i gotta do for the company that is also gonna be launched around mid may. so i will be so freaking tied up by all these activities in the next 2 weeks i guess..

right now.. been pondering about WoW lately alot... i already got 3 level 70 characters... Priest, Mage, Druid. i was thinking to start another one.. but looking at my current situation in this server, it makes me wanna reconsider playing another character there....

because, even if i make a dozens of characters.. i will still be doing the same thing over and over again, farm honor.. get S1 gears, 400 resilience, and poof done. i mean there is still alot of things for me to do.. like all my profession.. earning more money..but it looks like the only way to be so wtf pawning is to raid for PVE gears...

And it comes to a point where i am thinking if i should continue making characters at the horde side...cause currently my guild is not really making progression..i dont really mind.. but what i dont really like to see is people playing only when there is raid... i mean seriously.. we are quite a casual guild i know.., i wont complain much because i know myself very well lol... if i got alot of raids from guild... i will be lazy to go as well..

but i guess for now i just wanna change the environment of this game.. i am kinda tired of logging into the game and open my friend list and see 0 people online, even if there is its always Evictus and Axlon only. lol.. some times you will see desmond popping online and offline and afk. when i walk around in the town its like ghost town... only got a few people walking and jumping here and there... its so dead the atmostphere.. and we are losing to ally in BG alot.. so all these thing add up makes me a unhappy emo kia. i am more or less staying in this server cause of friends and i guess its time for me to go do my own stuff... and pop back into the horde side when there is raid...

lol time to play alliance .. so after days of research and survey... in game and forums. i think i decided to play at frostmourne.. seems like there is quite a number of singaporean players there...i wanna know them, it will be fun to have a group of friends that is very active in wow, and a guild that have tons of people from ourtime zone.. guild events that happens .. a freaking packed town when i play instead of ghost town... i know more or less i will be getting pawned by the hordes.. but i guess it wont be so bad afterall if i got alot of friends there..

FOR THE HHHOOOOOOOO , opps now is FOR THE ALLIANCE ! rofl, soon baby.. a human warlock or rogue.. perception rocks . Guess i shld make myself like arena more... PVP PVP PVP ... since the game is like moving towards this direction ... looking forward to the day where i can train ally... and for godsake!

After finishing the attatchment we still got FYP to do !.... holy cow.... I WANT MY HOLIDAYS MAN !!!!! TOTALLY DEPRIVED FROM IT SINCE OUR YEAR 2 LAST SEM.. we have beeen up and going without holidays for almost a year already..i know working adults life is like this.. That is precisely the reason why i wanted to get my holidays before i cant have them any more !!!! and to these people who got their holiday... and now studying specilization .... YOU ARE GONNA HAVE A HARD TIME MUHAAHHAHAHA i can imagine the feeling of go to attatchment .. then graduate from NYP and immediately go into the workforce or army !!! its totally pawnage.. and jump down from building kind of thing... I AM MAD ~! I WANT MY HOLIDAYS !!!! dont laugh at me when you read this please, you know you want the same thing as i do... heh...

Horrible

2008-03-19T19:45:00.000-07:00

Ok... Things are getting bad already.....

My supervisor just came and talked to me .. he explained some of the codes in teh fille he gave me.. which i can still understand...

so now.. he want me to change these files

#include "as_scripts/com.qlod.ExtendedBroadcaster.as"
#include "as_scripts/com.qlod.LoaderClass.as"

in the flash program to a movie clip class... and i dont even know how to do it.. GG
think later i am going to look for him and ask... sigh i hate this feeling.

now i am like really in living hell lol... with tons of things that i dont know how to do, and i have to do it by hook or by crook.

before coming to attatchment i am actually quite prepared to do sai kang.. like data entry la... testing... receptionist... IT boy... or even janitor...

in the end come here they gimme programming .... i want to do sai kang then they give me programming to do... i seriously find that attatchment is not really nessesary .... cause most of the poly student work while studying at the same time... so we already know how the feeling is like to work....

and so they are saying "to give you feeling of how industrial working environment is like"

The problem is, how many of us choose this course because we like what we are going to study for this course? everyone look at the book and see what year 3 have to offer us to choose from .. not what we are studying beforehand...

i choose this course because of animation... but aparrantly we haven even touch on it,
my friend from ITE like know so much more things about animation than i do in poly.
And so i was wodnering, if people from ITE know more things than what we are suppose to know in poly, Then i might as well choose ITE in the first place?

Poly is just a nice term for people to hear , but actually we are studying so much basic things instead of hands on. and i find it relly stupid..
Instead of making us study things that is more related to the course we wanted to Specialize in.. we are like in another round of 3 years secondary school. i know they want us to know what its like for the courses that we can specialize in , what we are going to study , so they throw us a little bit of everything to have a feel of it.

Maths, Physics, Programming, Database.. i mean yea, if you wanna talk about basics of animation i have to do all these. but right now there is so much programes that is happening out there so you think we will actually need to know the "basics" of these things? and these "Basics" dont carry us far enough even if we really need to use it. We will still stumble upon these rocks and fall .

Like me right now ! and some of my other classmate which is also at attatchment, Yiling and Aaron have to do a website for the company using the Studio program. and for God sake, we make the program until we want to die and get paid like 450 bucks per month. They sell the product we do they earn how much? 5k? 6k? 7k? 8k?

They a bunch of idiots man, They hire people from poly and expect them to work like how a professional should. And paying them 1/4 or 1/5 of what a professional should get. but expects the same result.

Boss: "Robin, i need you to convert these 2 into a movieclip,

#include "as_scripts/com.qlod.ExtendedBroadcaster.as"
#include "as_scripts/com.qlod.LoaderClass.as"

its not very difficult and its not very easy..
i will come and look for you again next tuesday to see what you have done, i dont expect you to finish it by then but i just wanna see what have you done."

then i tried to do it, i look at the codes. i look at the files. and i was asking myself, "How the hell am i suppose to change it into a movie clip class?" i dont think i have ever done this before in school.

Up till now answers are not found.

i know when people is working, there is tons of things that they need to learn to use or do as well. But cmon, i am 100% sure i wont step into programming job. So this dosent really affects me?

Fark man.

no life

2008-03-17T20:03:00.001-07:00

Hello boyyyyssssss and girlsssssss

long time no see... yesterday i went to watch water horse with Yiling and zhi hui

at first got liting and ying zheng also.. but she watched before alraedy .. so its no point to watch again then she went home. ying zheng watched another movie with his other friends.

So ended up the story is about the loch ness ... lol its not bad... just that the ending is really very typical.. so it wraped up for me not very nicely.. its like free willy lol. jump over the net =.=

i give it 6.5/10

if ending is some other thing then maybe i give it 8 .

mu hahhaha

Zomg having attatchment now , slacking like some animal in zoo sia. lifes horrible..

but i noticed time passes very quickly.. everyday. this is the third week of attatchment already ! so we left... 48 days of work ! good good good.

today i think maybe going to SLS to buy game.. Hellgate london... actually i am not very facinated by the game, but nvm work too stressed already. caused me to just wanna buy it and play i dont know why lol.

Attatchment

2008-03-04T21:29:00.000-08:00

Hello guys i am back... rofl after like 1 month plus for not blogging...

cause i am just god dam lazy... and now i blog because i am god dam bored...

having attatchment now... my working enviroment is not bad... workers here got kinda lots of welfare...

its ok if you late... rofl .. we are suppose to raech here by 9.30 ... but you can see people start streaming in at 10 am ... 10.20 ...

got a dinner area.. everythings free inside.. lol you can see one whole row of poky .. choc and strawberry flavour... hello panda... also whole row .. choc strawberry flavour too...

Potato chips... all kinds... Hot and spicy.. garlic.. original...

MnM chocolates.. Cookie.. Cerals .....

got a Pool table.. Wii ... Table soccer.. PS2 ...our own theatre ... and some OSIM message chair

wooo .. today is teh third day.. still not much work is given... i am now like doing selfstudy on action script.. thats all...

but this kind of life seriously kinda sark balls.. morning 9 am wake up.. go to work...6.30 pm end work.. go home... reach home around 7.20 ....

you know.. only got like 5 hrs of your own time before you go to sleep... and normally i will be quite tired to be in the mood for playing games and all kind of shit already..

Still got 11 weeks and 2 more days.. rofl .. i actually counted we have to work for 60 days.. not including sat and sun.. so 60 - 3 = 57 !

57 more days to go !

and i am selected to be in their designing team.. ACTION SCRIPT FTW . i am gonna faint alraedy ....

wow i kinda noticed i typed pretty much dotz like this ............... LOL i dont care ! i am mad already .. !!! WEE WEE WEEE WEE WEE WEE WEE

INSANE DAY

2008-01-29T07:52:00.001-08:00

well today was quite a wtf day...

early in the morning woke up at 9 ++ and go to sch for the DSA presentation..

then... we went to PIZZAHUT for our lunch.. ( gonna post the pictures later too tired today)

then... WTF man i just recalled my slippers just got Stolen.. FARK THE BANGALA PLEASE.

okok come back... hmm after pizzaahut.. maths lecture.. which i fell asleep... the teacher is a good hypnosis /gg can make your sleepy level rise to 100% in 30 mins. can hire her to lull me to sleep everynight.. And there is some fighting going on in the class as well /gg lots of "QUICK , STRANGLE HER , QUICK QUICK" hahah i got the video .. see when i free i upload..

then later its this IP lab lesson... we are suppose to hand in our project.. then its wtf mode time... we stayed in the lab from 5.45 - 10. 45 belive ? and in the end problem still not solved..

just reach home not long ago.. now i gotta study for my MArketing common test tomoro.. Holy shit .. lucky its in the afternoon ... gonna study in the morning... wokie wokie stop here first i go pang sai and bath...

MY SLIPPERS

2008-01-28T08:21:00.001-08:00

WTH !!! TODAY SOME IDIOT ( i suspect is bangala) STOLE MY SLIPPERS MAN .. !!!!!

ASS HOLE !!! EARLY IN THE MORNING I WAKE UP I WEAR MY LOK KOK SHIRT THEN I WANT TO WEAR MY SLIPERS TO SCH.. IN THE END I CANT FIND MY SLIPPERS , SO ENDED HAVE TO CHANGE MY PANTS AND WEAR SHOES INSTEAD.

AT FIRST I THOUGHT IS MY BROTHER WEAR .. IN THE END HE CAME BACK HE TELL ME HE DIDNT WEAR MY SLIPPERS !!!!

I CANT FIND MY SLIPPERS !!! ITS WITH SKELETON PATTERN ON IT !!!

THEN I FOUND THIS "UNKNOWN" SLIPPERS !!!

MUST BE WEAR MY SLIPPERS THEN LEAVE HIS OLD ONE HERE !!!! WTF MAN EXPECT ME TO WEAR AR? MAY THE ONE WHO STOLE MY SLIPPERS DICK GROW CAULIFLOWER SIA !! BAD DAY AR.

I DONT WANT WASTE MOENY BUY NEW SLIPPERS LEH !!!!! AND I DONT WANT TO WEAR THAT "UNKNOWN" SLIPPER!!!!

LAzyness

2008-01-27T10:50:00.000-08:00

Ha ha ha.. today just found found taht i can actually send fiels from my phone using teh blue tooth device... i thought i gotta use the cables... until my sister told me.

well... if thats the case i shld be taking more photo and make my blog more lively ... he he he ..

ok any way these are the photo i wanted to up load LAST week LOL .. i didnt blog for one week already !! woot

The Sky train

NEW BREWERKZ IN T3 LOOK AT THE EMPTYNESS

The lagguge collecting place...

Great day~

2008-01-20T10:59:00.000-08:00

Today was a very fun day for me.

Meet wei yi at 3 pm.. (was suppose to meet at 2 .. ) lol walk walk around bedok.. that i realise that it was the place Where we buy our stuff during the class chalet... lol

then we went to tampines mall... looking for bag.. but instead found these nice bargain Fila Shirts... 2 for 40 bucks.. looks nice.. i like it alot.. Eaten the Ramen there as well.. the ebi prawn sux.. dont buy next time LOL tio con.

went to Terminal 3 with wei yi to walk walk... terminal 3 was really a beautiful place.. walking around with my mouth open big big... took some photo with my phone.. but no time to upload it..Saw brewerkz branch there... its really empty.. lol only got one customer.. wtf man , its not open to public.. its inside the departure hall there.. which is stupid....

still doing my freakin EC quiz.. its really really bad.. EC seriously hope wont fail if not really can go and jump liao..

okok i tomoro then upload photo or what.. /gg only took 5 la .. 3 of them its brewerkz one.. LOL..

Bad day~

2008-01-17T07:03:00.000-08:00

Today ... Suppose to go to sch at 8 am ....

but then i do my website and presentation slides until 4 am ... so only got 3 hours of sleep... gotta present at 10 am ..

AND ITS ALL DESMOND FAULT ~ suddenly tell me got kara .. in the end the time i planed got messed up .. was actually gonna do my Work after meeting my friend..

then in the end become go home have to Kara .. Raid until 1 am .. do work until 4 am..

Woke up at 7.30am ... then i dont wanna pull my self up from bed.. its so warm and comfy.... so continue to sleep... then its 9 am... then i thought to my self.. Aiya.. OSM nvm one la.. no go also can la.... and i went back to Dreamland again...
the next moment i woke up its 10 am already ... i was like OMG ~! I NEED TO PRESENT!!!! so i bath and rush to sch...until i forgot to wish wei yi good luck for test.

then to my horror i realised i copied teh wrong Presentation slides =.= but luckily it is done easily ..

in the end present at 11.45 am .. cause the teacher ask me be gentlemen... let girls present first... then i say ok lo....

Tomoro got EC test.. its gonna be god like man.. that time scored 33/100 this time i dunno how much.. i hate our EC TEACHER~~!~!~! freakin cockroachman...

"Students..Lets us..watchs this videos thats i founds" all the freakin SSSSSS =.=

Full of surprises ..

2008-01-14T09:22:00.000-08:00

well today sch is quite funny with alot of things happening

early in the morning go to sch with only 3 hours of sleep. went for the maths lecture but i lietrally stoned there..

but wow i gotta hand in my Java... WPDP this week.. but it seems like i am slacking alot now adays.

nearly doze off while playing WOW just now was literally half asleep when i open my eyes i saw my druid banging the wall =.= 3 hrs of sleep simply owned me ...

actually could have gotten more sleep.. but yesterday night. i decided to feed my hamster before i sleep.. so i turn on my dim light and i approached my hamster cage..

then ... when i reach there i kneel down and looked into the cage trying to see what my hamsters are doing... but i saw some thing black moved inside.. and when i look at it closer i realise it was a cockroach =.=

he is stealing my hamster's food... so i turn on the lights instead of the dim one..
try my best not to alarm my hamsters... if not my hamster will run right up to the cockroach and you will start seeing my hamster having some cockroach snack.. but the cockroach is smart... he heard my hamster moving he quickly ran out of the cage..

then its my turn... mu hahahaha i took my broom .. walk towards it .. moved my hamster cage away and .... POOF~!~!~!! the cockroach ran behind my TV cupboard.. then GG ... he won..

but i lie down on my bed.. and i realise that hey.. i am sleeping in the living room ya know.. the cockroach my crawl up to me any time when i am sleeping..

so in the end i spray some insect repellent instead of insecticide .. coz my hamster is there i dont want it to kena ... i spray near the holes of teh cupboard.. to hopefully Stop the cockroach from moving out.. and quickly went to sleep.. its was like 4 ++ am by then =.=

and yea already told joey i am gonna quit.. and she didnt reply me ! wow i wonder what happened. T.T like so extreme like that tell her one to quit and she totally ignore me but nvm .. lets see going to work my last 2 days this week.. lets see how thing goes by then..

Rotting away

2008-01-13T07:39:00.000-08:00

Woo long time no see guys. for these who keep visiting my blog for constant updates i am very sorry (althought i know there is non of them)

lol today went out with wei yi, hope he did feel better after all these time. dont wanna see my friend lose their appetite and feeling sad all the day, no more tears please. =P

first time play pool for so long anyway. normal i play 2 match then GG already, today play 5 match lol

3 - 2 i lost =.= our result always the same.. last ball then lose.. every time left 2balls on the table.. one black and another stupid ball that just wont go into the pouch.

MOS fish burger is not bad.. the fish is reall soft and tasty as compared to macdonals one ..

Bought a 3 quarter pants at 77 street in heren today... lol cost 45 bucks..
was quite happy today after all rarely Got friend that accompany me throughout the day just shopping.. haha ..

i know jeremy will .. but i only talk about games scard i bore him to death.. lol

anyway i think i am quitting my job already... because i dont think i am so think skinned enough to take another long break from brewerkz... gotta tell joey about this.. hope she can understand.. after working there for some time i am abit reluctant to leave the palce.. but i seriously know i cant commit any more.. dont wanna dissapoint joey anymore.. i got really nice supervisors and managers... all of them are dam friendly and good .. never really scolded me except arjunan.. LOL but he is like that i understand. i dont blame him. nice working experience there.. really love everyone there

since semestral exams is coming again... omg.. it seems like i just finish my DAtabase and all the last sem exams nia.. so fast its another semestral exams.. quite sad actually cause after this sem we will be posted to different specialisation.. of course some will be the same.. but i will definately miss the class as a whole...

and right after the semestral exams we will be having attatchment already... this is one of the reason why i cant stay in brewerkz any more.... i am a game addict, even when i log into the game i have this sian 1/2 feeling cause there is alot of things for me to do until i dont really know which one to start. i sorta take game as part of my social life as well, log in to look for my online friends from other country.. enjoyed talking to them ..

so if i gotta go for attatchment monday - friday.. (assuming) i need time to rest and rot at home unless joey allow me to go for work one day per week then i will go lol..

my blog is Boring

2007-12-20T09:42:00.000-08:00

Lol , Sorry for not updating for so long..

cause too many shit happened until i cant cope with my time..

well.. alot of things happened this past 1 month +++ but i dont really consider them as good stuff.. have a feeling gonna fail my exams very badly for common test, project like do until very sarky... sigh..

watched chipmunks 2 days ago.. it was not bad, its just a little boring in the middle part and i dont really like the song they sing for the "concert" in the movie.
but i rate this movie as :

"You dont watch also nvm, after all you are just gonna see the 3 chipmunks not exactly the story of the movie" haha

Warlords - sarks
30 nights dunno wat one - sark ( my friend watch 30 min walk out of the cinema)

and yea... most importantly i went clubbing for the first time in my life ~!
with aaron, jeremy, ying zheng, desmond and eng hua. the feeling was bored initially when i went in.. but after some bouncing up and down in the super duper uber cramped dance floor.. and seeing how everybody is so united sing song together it makes me high abit. lol after we came out of the place i find that its not bad.. but its not really my style To club until the thing close la.. maybe next time go until 3++ will do .. i would say its pay 30 bucks to go in and squeeze with all the people, touch as many girls as you can, block as many girls as you can so they will brush their assets across your back when they are walking pass you .

but i not that bad la.. i let people cross.. not block people one.. ended up some shit guy come and brush against me until so song in the dance floor, i got no space to turn , so i have to put my hand in the front to advoid him contacting my "ahem" i think you understand la hor. he turn and look at me , see that i am a guy and yet he continue doing it. i wonder what is he thinking... hope he is not a gay =.= if not he eat my "tau hu" .. *Blushes* dont puke la i know i no tau hu la.. fats got alot la.. lol

yea .. and went To my Ragnarok online guild chalet.. meet alot of new people .. And people who come all the way from malaysia to singapore just to attend this gathering.. it was really fun night.. exchange present for chrismas.. ended up got all the lame and funny present.. the food was not bad.. ahaha sry my chicken wing failed. not cooked i give people eat hahahha

lol..

2007-11-05T11:13:00.000-08:00

omg .. look at the time... i am still doing the stupid questions for the lab tomoro morning

DSA .. shld name this module SAD instead...

got this stupid addiction from YZ weee weee weee weeee . its childish, but yet it have prooved that its useful to irritate people, and it works better than words like fuck you , or shut up . lol, it always makes the conversation end with a laughter.

hor ? wee wee weee weee wee . did you just laughed?

if you dont understand pls look for Khor Ying Zheng for a life demstration.

if you laughed pls continue laughing. thank you.

Stressed~!

2007-10-29T19:53:00.000-07:00

Aiyo.. now adays i like very busy seh.. lol Work + School + Band performance coming up is killing me so quickly, Mentally so tired.. and all the CB teachers is spamming all their project at us already.

up till now got already like 2 project, 0 done. lol haven even start on their project and i got like no time to do it .. ( i also need time for myself right?) compared to last time, i spend like 75% time infront of my computer lessser.

and that 25% for me left, i can barely do anything even i play. Didnt expect working + schooling is quite tormenting, i thought it will be easy .. actually it is easy, but the thing that is hard to overcome, is that you got no time for yourself. so your body is literally working like a robot..

and the worst thing i thought would never happen to me.. i got a nightmare about my work place, i dreamt about , me taking the wrong order... and it is a very small mistake. but coz i need to cancel the order that i took wrongly. so i went to find the manager.. then to my horror i recorded the table number wrongly.. then ended up i got 2 table with same number.. then the runner send food to wrong table... then blah blah .... i woke up and i found out i am late for sch , sch start at 10 but i woke up at 10.10 .. lol .. manage to reach the classroom by 10.30 .. fast huh..

AND JUST WHEN I AM TYPING THIS THE TEACHER ASK ME AND 2 OF MY CLASSMATE TO PRESENT SOME SHIT FOR NEXT WEEK.. WTF MAN ... HOME WORK + 1

STRESSED AR... !!!!

SCHOOLING

2007-10-14T21:03:00.000-07:00

WOO i in sch now .. mu hahahahha sorry for not blogging for so long.

i am working like hell for the past 3 weeks. no time for my games as well.

now slacking in class. teacher is speaking so softly... asking us to buy one textbook which cost 30++ WTF man thats like half day of my work. shit their ass.

now that i am working , my mother no give me pocket money already. i am gonna cry T.T, i am out of the cage already. everything my own money. Nooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

now that i am working. i got like a few things in my head to buy.

1)laptop (maybe)
2)handphone (when i see the model i like)
3)WoW fire of outlands booster pack. ( I WANNA GET SPECTRAL TIGER!!!)

BrewErkz

2007-09-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

WOOO first day at the brewerkz was horrible... but luckily the people there is good and friendly.. helpful..

LEg almost break. hand almost break. Brain almost burst..

need to remember the table number... need to remember the food names.... need to know how to hold like 4 plat of food on a tray.. and open a stupid stand so you can put your tray on it.. and its freakin .. horrible feeling... its like the food might topple any time... lol.. but over all its fun experience.. although tiring

FREED

2007-08-30T08:16:00.000-07:00

YAY EXAMS over 2 days AGO WOOO!!!!!! i know i am abit slow, but i am lazy to blog 2 days ago, trying to create teh feeling when i just finish the exams.. WOOOOOO FINISHED ALREADY OH YEA~!. DONT FAIL CAN ALREADY

zomg man today went to mr handsome house for "Buffet" at first tot wa... must be very nice and got lots of food to eat... ended up when me and some other friends Reach his house... we saw this tent, like when people die these kind of tent.

We was like =.= and there is monk inside chanting things "Praying", and by the time we reach there.. the food alraedy like 75% gone.

so ended up we eat beehoon + curry. rofl. some prawns and chicken wings.
i am looking forward for the class chalet.. weeee.. any one Got some nice board games to bring there... lol i dont wanna end up playing memory game Again.. hahahahhaa

Outdated

2007-08-26T02:55:00.000-07:00

lol i forgot To blog like 3 days Ago man.. after my stupid OOAD test..

i lost a freakin 8 marks cost i didnt recognize the questions =.= I REMEMBERED THE ANSWERS MAN. until desmond and jeremy Was like telling each other.. eh controlling bla blah is (!#!$!@#!@$!@#!@!) hor? . then they both was like ya ya ya ....

then in my head i was like WTF, I REMEMBERED THIS ANSWER MAN. I DONT RECOGNIZE THE QUESTION . OMG. rofl

any way one more paper left.. but i neeed to work too.. need lobang for work.

and this paper is the worst among all.. lol database sarks...

And Vash Quit wow alraedy T.T Hope to see you more on MSN man. i will miss you T.T

Life sux..

2007-08-17T05:43:00.000-07:00

Omg man.. this game is getting out of hand already..

Classes unbalanced here and there. people complaning here and there.

and stupid Blizzard only give us one reply "We are looking into it.... We are looking into it.."

we had enough already, one whole chain of peeps is quiting the game if they dont start fixing classes. and continue on their expansion ftw.

i mean come on. "Burning Crusade" came out like 7 months ago? and you are telling us to go and buy your next expansion? Wrath of the lich king?, Name it Wrath of the players please.

and for god sake BURNING CRUSADE is a failure. Arena is a FAILURE. tons of nerfs and buffs need to be made to the characters, and there they are only busy with making expansion. making starcraft 2.

Life just gets worst for me, i am breaking down already , not coz of this game dont worry, i gave up long long ago.

some times i really think was i a bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad guy in my previous life, and everything is coming back for revenge this life. yea compared to others that got like AIDS when born. No Eyes , no this no this when borned. i am very lucky. but i seriously just rather a car will just bang into me and die than to just torture me mentally. but i guess car cant fly into my house so too bad. i am a rotter, 24 hrs at home.

So fark that . i had enough already. time to give me a better life man. life's is farking unfair, and mine is worst. Why pick me to give so many Freakin problem that happens like in 1 in a million. i got how many problem in me that is like 1 in a million chance already. one of it is the farking birthmark on my head. guess its a chop for the god to use me as rats to test out new things.

i farking buy 4d, TOTO so many times. not even one time tio. i never ask for all these things to happen to me and you are giving it to me for free. ZZZZZZZZZ so please. i dont know how much more time i have to live, just leave me alone for now thanks.

I am bored

2007-08-13T00:13:00.000-07:00

Today my WoW account expire already... lol i planning to reload it if Desmond and his cousins wanna play back. which is at the end of this month

but right now really is dam bored until i feel like reloading it coz i got nothing to do. DOTA is dam sian. lol all game sianz, i always got this very bad habbit. if i cant play my game, i will keep wanting to go home and play, but if i am given more than enough time to play i will ended up screaming i am bored of my games. lol

i dont wanna waste my few days of rest before i start the intensive studying again.

20th of aug got Network technology test.

23th got OOAD.

28th got DATABASE.

why NYP so idiot one ar? lol Semestral Exams right after common test. and all the intensive projects before our common test. Although this is the third time we are experiencing it, but i felt that this sem is like longest among all. its like almost 2 months of test and projects going on. so mentally tired.

Hm.. although got like few days to one week break like that, but everytime the though of exams just makes me sian 1/2 no matter what i am doing.

And i am a freakin rotter who loves to stay at home all day. clicking at the computer even if i got nothing to do. Then i suddenly remember i got one blog then i come and tok cock and complain.

lol now that i noticed my blog almost 90% all talking about exams and stress one leh.
rofl, i dont wanna talk about my game or wat coz later type already you all read liao also sian.

i dont wanna make my blog "Sleeping pills" for my friends, lol

See la type half way friend call and ask me go dobby =.= I JUST SAID I AM A FREAKIN ROTTER. lol.

How sia , dont feel like rejecting him coz long time no go meet him liao. but i lazy to go and bath and walk out of my house. And partly i dont like to go out coz i dont want to spend money ... hahahaha

Stressed

2007-07-31T06:31:00.000-07:00

hmm ..

work on hand for now...

OOAD project x 1 (due this thursday)
FLASH project x 1 (due on next week)
FLASH lab test x 1 (this thursday)
RAD written test x 1 (this wednesday)
RAD lab test x 1 (this friday)
Marketplace report x1 (this thurday)
Market place presentation x1 (this thursday)
Japanese written test x1 (this thursday)
NTP presentation x 1 (this wednesday)

hmm... can i not go mad?

lol STRESSED AR..

listening to Nagareboshi from naruto .. sigh..

hmm yesterday i play O2jam LOL TOTALLY GOT PAWNED fingers stiff like rock. i cant even do what i can play. Fly magpie level 9 i also can miss ROFL.
fingers too stiff..

after all of my these work still got my common test.. then my Semestral exams..
lol ... this is total madness.

MADNESS

2007-07-25T08:58:00.000-07:00

(WA CAO Eh) x Infinity times....

TOMORO JAPANESE ROLE PLAY AR!!!!!!!!!... LISTENING TEST ALSO AR

NEXT WEEK GOT JAP TEST , RAD TEST , ANIMATION TEST, PRESENTATION, PERFORMANCE .

KILL ME PLS ~! HOW AM I GOING TO STUDY SO MANY THINGS... COMMON TEST COMING IN 2 WEEKS TIME. SEMTRAL EXAM COMING IN 4 WEEKS TIME. ~!~! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SHEN AR , JIU JIU WO BAH , NYP SIAO LA , RANG WO DU SHU DU DAO QI SIAO.....

Welcome to my life ^.^ i am mad. AKA Siao Kia(Kiddx)

Today

2007-07-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

Zomg man. today got Database QUIZ .. 10% of the whole module again... and stupid aaron only Tell me right before i going to Sleep..

lol .. but also must thank him la. if he no tell me i die lol. he told me at 1 am say got quiz tomoro =.= i was like "WTF" .. then being my usual Self.. Freaked out.. but still walking around in house.. convincing myself to study LOL.

ended up i sit down at 2 am.. then finish studying the things at 2.35 am . rofl ..

I AM GOING MAD.. Watashi wa hon toni qi siao des. (i am really mad - in jap + hokkien) typicall singaporean... rojak ... lol i am mad i am mad.

PSP

2007-07-17T09:54:00.000-07:00

Omg man.. i downloaded 3 games from this stupid webby.. but since its a free download thingy.. it kinda restrict the amount of bytes you can download from the webby..

and gotta wait for 24 hours which is one day to continue downloading.. BUT freakin noob webby keep adding on the number of bytes i downloaded from it, even it shows me the message "Download Limit is Exceeded" like for example i download 100 mb .. after it shows the message, if i click again . it will say you have 100mb of data queued for downloading. BUT I CANT FREAKIN FIND the 100MB i wanna download from every corner of the webpage !!!! T.T farking webby...

until i click click then now become "you got 1.3 GB of data Queued for downloading. please wait for the download to finish before continuing to download." ZOMG wtf shit them T.T from 300mb become 1.3gb rofl .. idiot web site

waste my time to wait.. liew i want to download power stone one leh... shit man. same from the arcade one i used to play so much ... cao.. nice game leh. any one got? send me leh lol

http://pspdownloadswitch.net/showthread.php?t=9462 << this the webby

i want this game !!!!

FOR SHYAN

2007-07-15T10:00:00.000-07:00

hahahah okok this my 4th entry... here goes nothing...

today band practise... i saw alot people blowing trumpet...clarinet..flute...

i was playing with my drums... dong dong dong Piak piak piak...

then hor.. i went home.. play dota.. "BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!" i died.. so sad right?

first blood summore.. then the guy godlike liao.. omg. i leave the game immediately..

2007-07-10T18:17:00.000-07:00

DAM BORED AR. HOW SIA?

Thursday got persentation..
Friday got presentation..
Friday got Friend Birthday...
Friday got band performance T.T
Friday After performance got Chalet....

i am freakin Busy on friday >.< i wanna be like naruto . Shadow replication FTW.Some one teach me please.

Need to go my primary sch friend's birthday after Performance... at the same time need to go for Chalet after my performance.. T.T dont go this also wrong.. dont go that also wrong =.= how sia?

OMG Robin Strikes back

2007-07-06T01:18:00.000-07:00

ok i am finally back ~! . lol finally settled my blog skin thingy.. its still shitty..just using this temporary .. FINALLY NO MROE "XML error"
omfg i just feel more relaxed =.= read my blog pls.

hello guys .. welcome to my life ^.^
i am mad. ^.^

Heh look at the date man... 7 months ago i had my first post LOL

First Blog..

2006-12-07T06:46:00.000-08:00

Hello guys.. just joined this big online supala ultrala "IN" thingy

Special thanks to Jessica who taught me how to do these thingy.

Today was not a good day for me.. think i am gonna fail my Communications Skill Test ..

Sigh..

Lol i go study liao.. tomoro java test .... T.T